Wrestling: It's Hard

Growing in my relationship with the Lord is wonderful and scary. I have been so excited to become a strong woman of God but what does that mean for my future?

"His Presence can provoke turmoil within you for a time, but those who press through the struggles and hang on to faith in Him will be blessed"

Not long after I arrived in Sesto Calende I began to feel very attached. I can easily see myself here. I love my friends, my small apartment, and my surrogate family :) 

I want to go and be where the Lord wants me to be. Is that in Italy? Dallas? Somewhere new? I do not know..

What I do know, is that should I return, my stay would be between 1 and 2 years. I could not come back for just 3 months! But, I can also see  how the Lord is using this experience to make me a stronger witness for Him at home. I can see myself in Dallas, New York, Washington DC...but where will I go? How do I know? I can not simply make a pro/con list and move on from there (Gilmore Girls reference). And so, you see what I am wrestling with...do I go forward to begin fundraising for a longer stay? Do I take the wait-and-see approach? I have begun applying for jobs in the states...If I get a job is that the answer?

"We have to be able to trust in the goodness of His purposes, even when our path takes unexpected turn. We have to be able to believe that He is living and working within us. And we have to be able to let go of all competing props that would hold us up or tempt us to rely on OUR OWN RESOURCES. In some respects, it can be hard work to rest in Him"

Thank you so much everyone for your prayers and support. Trusting that the Lord will show me which path to take and that He will give me peace.

"And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus" Philippians 4:7

Arrivederci Ya'll ;)